In everything I do. I want to be perfect at it. Like the saying goes: if you’re going to do something, do it right. And I don’t think that’s wrong. Although when every I do something that is not up to my standards, like let’s say I get a B on a test that I really wanted an A on, I flip. I literally freak out to the point that I start to cry. But I think I’ve finally figured out why that is: I’ve never felt good enough. Probably never will. So when I do something that is not perfect in my eyes, those feelings of not being good enough flood to the surface in the form of my pathetic tears. I have such high dreams and aspirations for myself but I think that I know deep down that they will never come true. Because I’m not good enough.
Rant over.